Looks Like Up
Friday, May 17, 2013
May 17
I
can’t believe this is the last journal entry!
It really feels like I just started my project. I feel like that’s such a cliché, but it’s so
true! Also saying that is kind of a
cliché, but I’m okay with that for now.
But actually, so fast. It makes
me kind of sad. I feel really even more
excited for next year than I ever have, though.
It feels so good to have actually made something, and I feel like I’m
going to feel like that all the time next year.
Today I flipped over the rest of the
tiles that I made and I Set them all on the bisque shelf to dry before they get
bisqued, whenever that will be.
Apparently there’s going to be some competition for space in the little
electric kiln before the year is over. I
feel like I should get priority ‘cause I’m a senior.
I was going to make more tiles, and
I started wedging more clay, and it was really dry and impossible to wedge, and
I already have way more tiles than I know what to do with, so I just decided to
be done, and to go work on my history paper some more. And I felt really good about it and not
guilty at all, so I feel like that’s a good thing. I just got back from Lindsey and Molly’s
show, and it was so cool. I really hope
that mine goes well. I’m so psyched to
see it all set up, and it was so cool to see theirs all done. I keep telling Lindsey not to sell any of the
pieces yet because I’m actually going to buy her out. The jewelry is so cool! I have dibs on a necklace with a little paper
elephant, a pair of earrings, and a cuff bracelet. So that’s pretty exciting.
I hope people like my show. I was worried that nobody was going to come,
but then I remembered that Bob and Tina are also going to be in the gallery, so
it will probably be pretty packed.
Hopefully nobody knocks the table over accidentally or something like
that. I worry. I’ll have to make lots of please don’t touch!
signs.
We have our senior advisor dinner
with Ms. Smith on Sunday. It’s going to
be me, Mark, Lindsey, and Kristen, and also Emma and Annie, who are Ms. Smith’s
“fake advisees.” There are going to be a
lot of tears. So many tears.
Goodbye!
May 16
Today
I made a bunch of tiles. I made
sixteen. So now I have twenty six. And my goal was twenty-five to thirty, so I’m
pretty much good to go. Tomorrow I’m
going to have to clean them up and flip them over and let them dry, and then
over the weekend they’ll dry, and I’ll be able to bisque them next week and
hopefully get them all glazed before the year ends. They’re definitely not going to be ready
before the show on Thursday, but that’s ok.
I don’t actually really know what I’m going to do with all of them.
If I had all the time in the world,
I’d like to try to make a whole new set.
Now that I actually know how to do everything. I think I could probably make better plates,
and better everything, really.
Especially those salad plates…
But it’s ok. I think it’s good
that I even know that I could make better ones.
And then if I had even more time on top of all the time in the world, I’d
make things like berry bowls and other superfluous dishes. Because it quantity, not quality. Just kidding.
It’s my secret dream that a cool big
store will buy my designs and sell them.
Like Anthropologie did with Molly Hatch’s ceramics. Really Anthropologie is the dream. It’s kind of a really big dream, too. I always tell myself that something awesome
like that will happen eventually, I just have to keep with it long enough. I feel like if I can trick myself into
thinking that then maybe everything will turn out the way I want it to.
It’s going to be really time consuming to glaze all of these
tiles. I don’t know why I decided to do
that. I was totally done. I guess I felt kind of guilty for being done,
so I decided to stack on some more work for myself. I always do that. I feel like I just need to relax. This summer will be good for that, lots of
beach reading.
I have a history paper due on Sunday. The first few pages are due tomorrow. I thought it was going to be really difficult
to write, but I already wrote an outline, and when I sat down to actually do
it, it went really quickly. I just need
to find some good primary sources and then it’ll be good to go.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
May 15
Today I finished up and flipped the
tiles that I made earlier this week. You
have to flip them over a bunch of times so they dry evenly and they don’t
warp. I didn’t really get that much else
done today. I was going to make more
tiles, but I needed to go to senior conditioning early because I had an
appointment in Buzzards Bay. I went and
did yoga for forty-five minutes, which was really nice. It was kind of odd, though because I was just
in that little nook in the hallway of the fish center, and people kept walking
by and I felt all gross. But it felt
really good anyway. I’m going to do that
again tomorrow. It was nice to just take
forty-five minutes and have relaxing music in my headphones. And taking my glasses off it really odd. Then I went to How On Earth and I got a Kale
salad. Which was delicious. I love How On Earth. It’s amazing.
Then I went and had my appointment with my therapist. It was so amazing; she’s so great. It was one of those where you feel like
you’ve actually had a massage when it’s over.
It’s funny how it can be such a quick fix. I don’t feel anxious at all anymore. I’m a little stressed about this and that,
but I feel good. It feels good to feel
good. When I got back to Falmouth, I
went to Coffee O and I wrote in my little notebook for a little while. I really like to write about what’s going on
in my head. Then I read for a bit and
had some tea, and then my sister came home from school for the summer! So today was a really good day.
I was looking at shoes online for a
while, too. There’s this really cool company
– John Fleuvog. Everything they make is
so incredible, but so expensive. I kept
adding shoes and things to my little online cart, just for fun, because I don’t
actually have any money, and it was way more than a thousand dollars. I thought that was funny. I might get this one pair of sandals that’s
on sale and really adorable. I think
they’re going to look cool with my prom dress, and also I’ll wear them all the
time after that. I always have to
justify buying things for myself. They’d
be totally worth it.
May 14
More tile making today. I was really productive. I made a bunch of tiles, by making a slab and
then cutting it, and then I decided to just make a bunch of slabs so that I
could make the tiles all in a row. I was
going to make six by six tiles, but I keep cutting the slabs too small and I
have to make five by five ones. Which is
okay, too. That was the size I wanted
originally. It’s hard to make big enough
slabs because they clay gets so cracky and dry with all of the grog in it. Cracky is apparently not a real word.
I’m almost done with the twenty-six
pounds of clay. Actually, probably
not. I made almost the whole bag worth
of slabs, but I still have to cut the tiles and then wedge the scraps back up
and make more slabs and then more tiles and then wedge the scraps and make more
slabs and more tiles until I pass out.
Probably. I feel like I’m baking
sugar cookies. I think I might bake real
sugar cookies at some point.
Making tiles is way more time
consuming than it looks like it should be.
We had our English class in hoyt
today. I’m going to miss that class when
the year is over. I really like the book
club idea. Maybe I can convince some of
my friends to have a book club with me this summer. Although I’ll probably spend most of the
summer finishing I am Charlotte Simmons.
Which I love. I love Tom
Wolfe. He’s probably my favorite author,
besides Richard Fariña. I started
reading the Right Stuff earlier this year, but I got too busy to finish
it. Maybe I’ll finish that this summer,
too. It’ll just be a Tom Wolfe
summer. I’m really excited to go on lots
of bike rides this summer. There’s this
place in Falmouth called Bourne Farm, and it’s perfect. You can get there really easily on the bike
path, and then walk around and it’s really beautiful, and then there are lots
of trees to sit under and have a picnic or read. I always sit outside of Coffee O and read
after work. I feel like that’s how I
spent most of last summer. I don’t even
remember doing anything else. Hopefully
this summer is a little bit more exciting.
I’m going to Quebec with my mom and my sister right after graduation! So that’ll be a good start.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
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